Bacon Says...where do I fit in?

When I grow up one of my goals is to marry a mixed person. Does that sound kind of weird? Well here's the reason...I want mixed children. Does that sound shallow? You may be wondering why I want mixed children...even if you're not I'm going to tell you. So in case you didn't know, I'm mixed; black, white, and apparently some Indian. My biological mother looks clearly mixed with black and white. He mother was jewish and her father, I'm guessing, was black and Indian. I'm not completely sure about all of this but it's what my mom told me and also what my biological oldest sister said when I met her.

Anywho the real reason I want to marry a mixed individual and have mixed kids is because I have much faith that if we bring more people of mixed decent into this world, pretty soon it will be hard for racism to exist. I do believe that racism is part human nature and part learned behavior. So, if everyone in America was mixed and could trace back their roots to one ethnicity, then it would be very difficult to discriminate. Because I am a firm believer in this "theory" of mine I feel as though I should support it. I love interracial relationships and I love to mixed children, mainly because growing up mixed I definitely felt alone in the world. I was adopted by an all black family and there's only one person in my immediate family whom I am close in color to. When I was born, I looked asian, facial features and color. I was very pale/yellow and I believe I stuck out like a sore thumb. My parents aren't dark, but they don't exactly look like they could have produced some one of my color. Around the toddler through elementary school age, I was VERY PALE! I got made fun of because I was too light (or acted too "white") to hang with the black kids and I was too "black" to hang with the white kids. I was in a constant struggle with accepting who I was and what I was and that made me a pretty...emotionally disturbed (for lack of a better word) child. Now don't get me wrong, I was NOT crazy, but you could tell early on something was bothering me. Not being accepted by your own people, referring to African Americans, hurts more than anything else in the world. I was scarred as a child and still to this day when my friends make fun of me for being so light, its kind of hurts my feelings. I don't even think I'm that light! and when I say this to people...they laugh. I guess there is a pretty big difference between my arms and legs and my face lol. I often wondered, "where do I fit in?" when I was growing up. I identify with the black race simply becuase I know I look more black than I do white, and I must admit I semi agree with the "one drop rule". If you don't know what that is, basically if you have one "drop" of black anywhere in your family, your black. That was an old rule to identify mixed people and it is kind of racist but I mean hey, if you look black and you're mixed...you might as well just claim your black heritage.

Anywho, to my point, I want mixed children because I want them to grow up confident in themselves and to have a love for all of their heritage(s). I want to bring more mixed people into this world so that hopefully they can be advocates for my crazy theory that they will wipe out racism. As more people are becoming open anyway, I think the learned behavior related to racism will begin to diminish more within at least 50 years. I think when I have grandchildren or maybe even as late as great-grandchildren, it will be more socially accepted to be in an interracial relationship.

What do you guys think about this?